As I realize that my last post was many months ago, it's quite ridiculous and humorous to me. No doubt I desired and meant to update much, much sooner, it simply did not happen, unfortunately. Thankfully, these records are kept in my personal journal which I may post publicly as I allude to them here once in a while. To sum up these past few months in one word: transition. No longer being RA, moving into an apt, facing classes with renewed vigor and enjoyment, developing a passion for Creation, being in my senior year, going through a season of wilderness, saying goodbyes, anticipating and embracing change, having my brother around once more, knowing God deeper. Dying to myself. Humility. Oh, how good He has been--I have been transformed!
Now, I am peering ahead into my last semester of college and anticipating what is ahead. "What are you going to do after college?" I am asked (inevitably). The response? I have absolutely no idea. The type-A, controlling planner who first came to college a few years ago released her plans to the Lord awhile back. I am NOT in control, therefore why control? I definitely have desires for my future which involve more school in the medical realm, doing community development with church planting and missions, but at this point in my life, I am being asked to wait for His answer (even to my own "Well, what am I going to do next?!" question) patiently. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." Okay, Jesus, if You tell me to do that, that means I don't have to know about tomorrow.
Since school started more than a week ago, my mind and heart have exploded with new ideas, questions, people, and prayers. Ecology, the interconnectedness of everything in creation, global catastrophes in relation to missions. Nutrition, taking this wealth of knowledge to the nations. Poverty. Islam: appreciating it, learning about it, interacting with those of this faith. Jane Eyre and Victorian culture. It has also been so neat to see how God has been laying similar burdens on the hearts of many individuals on campus and in this metroplex for more unity in the Body, a desire for deeper understanding of the Word and the necessity of prayer. If nothing else, these past two weeks have been overflowing with prayer as I've been able to pray and worship (often spontaneously) with individuals and groups alike on a daily basis, which has been so edifying. God is doing something unpredictable and utterly mind-blowing: my words are not even adequate enough to explain this movement of His Spirit.
Now, I am peering ahead into my last semester of college and anticipating what is ahead. "What are you going to do after college?" I am asked (inevitably). The response? I have absolutely no idea. The type-A, controlling planner who first came to college a few years ago released her plans to the Lord awhile back. I am NOT in control, therefore why control? I definitely have desires for my future which involve more school in the medical realm, doing community development with church planting and missions, but at this point in my life, I am being asked to wait for His answer (even to my own "Well, what am I going to do next?!" question) patiently. "Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself." Okay, Jesus, if You tell me to do that, that means I don't have to know about tomorrow.
Since school started more than a week ago, my mind and heart have exploded with new ideas, questions, people, and prayers. Ecology, the interconnectedness of everything in creation, global catastrophes in relation to missions. Nutrition, taking this wealth of knowledge to the nations. Poverty. Islam: appreciating it, learning about it, interacting with those of this faith. Jane Eyre and Victorian culture. It has also been so neat to see how God has been laying similar burdens on the hearts of many individuals on campus and in this metroplex for more unity in the Body, a desire for deeper understanding of the Word and the necessity of prayer. If nothing else, these past two weeks have been overflowing with prayer as I've been able to pray and worship (often spontaneously) with individuals and groups alike on a daily basis, which has been so edifying. God is doing something unpredictable and utterly mind-blowing: my words are not even adequate enough to explain this movement of His Spirit.
